From the looks of it, I dunno if the boys will get over this wall. It's awkward...and not just because it's been so long since I've seen all five together, but it's awkward. Firstly, I have never seen Jae NOT talk during an interview, or Yunho talk for all five of them. Second, none of them looked at all happy. Not even remotely. Especially Changmin. It's like freaking cold war atmosphere.



I'm hoping this is just me overthinking, but the chemistry feels WAY off. Nothing is going on between the five of them. JaeChun are off in their own little "melody and harmony" world, taking Su along for the ride. The three of them might as well have sang without HoMin. Chun was definitely on his A-game I feel, but you can tell neither Yunho or Changmin have been singing for the last while...Changmin looks really, really, really uncomfortable. On the plus side, they all look amazing. *_* I approve of everyone's hair except Ho's, because it's still post-HTTG hair.

*sigh* =_= It's over, over, over...I hate the idea they are now just working together. None of them can fake it that well, either. God, if it's this miserable to see them all together, I'd rather have them break up and do their own thing. You can pretty much tell I've picked one side over the other, obviously. >_>; I'm sorry, I can't help it. I've always been Jae biased. He can tell me the sky is purple and I'd believe him.

My brain is thinking up a lot of questions and stuff, and ngl, I am kind of blaming a lot of things on HoMin right now. I feel that JaeChunSu are at least trying. It doesn't feel like it from HoMin. And if, as a leader, he's gonna let it get this bad, I'm gonna be real disappointed with Yunho. I can't imagine what kind of home life the five are leading right now. TT-TT It makes me sad, it really does. I kind of want to throw up right now. Yet again. But it may have to due with stress, too. Assignment due tomorrow and all. >_>; Sans fanfiction, this fandom makes me go "gah". I'm gonna run away to 2PM now. Comfort my woes, Wooyoungie~

Urgh. If it's gonna be this awkward, I am seriously considering jumping ship. Well, at least avoiding post-lawsuit DBSK. Their old vids still make me really happy to watch...I wish we could all go back to that, but I dunno if we can...

I'm hoping this is me overthinking.

TT-TT Recently DBSK airport pics makes me extremely sad. I have yet to see them travel to Japan all separately. Why would they be travelling separately?

*sigh* The fandom is not very stress relieving these days...

I'll be anticipating all five of them together again. But I think it's going to be awkward, and I would not be surprised if someone cries. I wonder what's gonna happen when all five of them are together again, in Japan...

So to avoid the drama that is DBSK, I've apparently run over to the equally dramatic (but somehow significantly less stressful) 2PM. Not that I've jumped ship, just...*sigh* DBSK is too much stress right now, and the whole thing with Jaebum is kind of resolved...I mean, we know he's gone now, but JYP has made it pretty clear he's gonna come back.

But anywas, until Tohoshinki is back and working in Japan again omg, it makes me so tense and nervous~~, I've been indulging in a lot of 2PM. Usually it's the music that gets me into a group, but for them it was totally the other way around. XD I got totally addicted to Idol Army with 2PM, and then Wild Bunny. I mean, Suju is funny, they are hilarious with their randomness...but 2PM are just fucking retarded! XD Watching Wooyoung and Jay cook on Idol Army had me in stitches! I just love watching boys who can't cook cook. I also find that Leadja kept losing his mind the more he goes on variety shows...by Wild Bunny he had reached Jia-levels of insanity. XD It was awesome. By far they have trumped all the other idols as the most hilarious and random bunch. Oh, and let me proclaim my deep love for Wooyoung. *_* Who is the most retarded of them all~~~~

And hence I've been listening to alot of "Again and Again" and "Heartbeat".

But anyways, seriously, people just need to watch ep 4 of Wild Bunny and their serious abuse on Taek. *_* And Jay's awesome Bipolar hitting~ In fact, people need to watch Idol Army season 3 and Wild Bunny. It's so freaking random and hilarious. And really helps with stress!

Life...is good...XD I finally completed, at long last, my literature review, which had me panicking for two weeks. I went through so many books and journals its insane, but at last I'm done~! For those of you who don't know what a Sociological literature review is, it's basically a small research essay that's part of my larger 15 page minimum research paper, looking at research done and relating to my thesis. And I'm so glad to be done it. It was easily the most difficult part of my paper, so far...though for the final draft of my paper, my literature review section will probably be longer.

So that's one down in my list of things to do for this week. Now I have a Religious Studies film commentary left, an English essay and a Philosophy essay. Must also get working on my two reading responses that's due at midnight tonight (that's right, my prof is so anal he wants us to send this stuff to him by midnight >_>;).

But it feels sooo good to be done homework that it's just short of orgasmic. *_* I can't wait till I taste freedom in two weeks. *twirls*

The funny thing is, I spent this whole day while writing this paper listening to Show Me The Money by Petey Pablo. >_>; How this song helps with writing homework I don't understand. It's the same thing with Hikki's English album...it really helps me focus...

So apparently...JaeChunSu did end up going to MAMA. And...oh my god, it's probably one of the most depressing videos ever. They did not look happy to be there. At the end, when Jae was talking about HoMin, he almost looked like he was about to cry. Poor bbs...this must be so hard on them. Though, I'm just glad they are looking all healthy...it's been so long since I've seen Junsu... TT-TT And I'm really happy with all three's hair...Yoochun is rocking the Mirotic look again.



I bet anything this is some secret SM ploy to have the three of them come and make news while the rest of the company does a "ban"...I would not be surprised. Still...it's nice to see the three of them again...*sigh* I missed my Jae...and he looks as good as ever, albeit a little depressed...

I can't help procrastinating...I really dun wanna do my projects. >_< But I know I will have to. I will try to start working on them all tomorrow, but once again, UBV is distracting me, yet again. But I'm determined to at least get one of my essays going. Plus, I need to watch Jesus Christ Superstar for my Religion class tomorrow...which will be interesting, to say the least...'cause Jia hates musicals and things that bastardizes Jesus. >_>; You can imagine my loathing for Mel Gibson's Passion of the Christ, which I did sit through without closing my eyes from the gore.

*sigh* I really need to stop procrastinating and work on my essay. >_< Need to at least start on it tonight and get at least a thesis out.

Argh. Fml... TT-TT

On one of those completely unrelated notes, I was looking through pictures I took with friends, and I realized my aegyo makes me look kind of like Park Bom. o_O;

Oh, and the last ep of You're Beautiful made me so sad... TT-TT Shinwoo~~~don't feel bad, you have noona~! I feel bad for the whole cast. I hope this all gets resolved nicely, though. I can't believe this series is coming to an end next week. It's like Cain and Abel all over again...I'm now missing something to look forward to each week...maybe I'll finally watch IRIS. >_>; But honestly, like Temptation of Wife, its brother series Temptation of Angel is really...tempting me...XD

And I can't wait to see Idol Army with MBLAQ. I love Idol Army with 2PM...the boys were freaking HILARIOUS, and it totally increased by love for Jaebum, Taekyeon and Wooyoung. God, I miss them on that show...I miss Leadja in general. >_>; *sigh* But I'll be happy to see Joon who easily became my instant bias on Idol Army. *sigh* =_= I'm such a guy. I always go for the pretty and stupid ones with the sole except being Heechul in SJ. Jae being an excellent example. >_>; I judge myself.

No~~~~Junsu must remain pure and adorable... O_O; He should stop confusing me...argh...what a Jekyll and Hyde. Junsu yah! You don't even know what sex is, so please stop hurting Jia's brain because she has never been able to see you as anything other an adorable puppy that's younger than me.

Oh this is not good for my brain...though the bias has nothing to worry about...

As people may have noticed from my post-it wall, I have a whole bunch of crap due next week...I have a Literature review due the 24th, a Religious Studies film analysis due the 25th, an English essay due the 26th, and finally a Philosophy essay due the 27th. To say the least, I will be pretty bussy till at least the 27th when I'll be free and get to go watch Ninja Assassin, yay!. x_x It is pretty much my week of hell, as that all of these papers have a four page minimum, and I have two other weekly responses to write. My Literature Review will be the bitch, because it actually takes time to do research and look at data and theories and stuf...Oh, and must remind one-self to research more (and on Social Identity Theory).

Hence, I'm pushing back the opening day of ubv_the_seriesto November 30th.

This way, I have more time to write, and hopefully some time to work on an opening sequence, though I doubt that will happen till after all my papers are handed in on December 8th. In general, though, I won't be updating anything till after the 8th of December...

...I'm so close to freedom, though, I can taste it. TT-TT

On a completely unrelated note, I've been watching an ungodly amount of Sailor Moon lately. I seriously forgot how amazing this series is...especially Stars. *_* I haven't watched Stars in ages~~~

...I think the video speaks for itself. She is kind of amazing in my eyes now. *_* For this alone. Plus, I like her better than Miley...she seems much sweeter.

Firelight looks so much better than Twilight. XD The title's not bad.

I'm an avid film connoisseur, and have seen a lot of movies from all over the place, and every once in a while, I just want to put what I have seen out there. I'm also someone who is extremely critical about the films I watch, and I make a very clear distinction between movie and film. It's a lot easier to please Ebert and Roeper than yours truly. The last film I reviewed was Lars von Trier's Breaking the Waves, a sheer genius piece of cinema, and sits at number two of my most favourite films of all time. You can find the review here. The film I'm going to be introducing all of you to is a personal favourite of mine, and Canadian film to boot.

The Red Violin is an Oscar and Juno award winning drama directed by acclaimed French-Canadian director François Girard, who also directed Thirty Two Short Films About Glenn Gould. The Red Violin spans three centuries, five countries and languages, and tells the story of a violin and the lives of her various owners.



The tale of the Red Violin, a legendary and perfect violin by a famed violin maker, begins in Montreal, Canada, where it is being auctioned off. The story then jumps to the past, starting from the place of the violin's birth--Cremona, Italy. The violin then travels to Vienna and to the hands of a young prodigy in1700s, and then to Oxford in the 1890s and the possession of a famed English violinist, then to Shanghai at the height of the Cultural Revolution, and finally to Montreal in 1997.

Each owner the Red Violin comes in contact with tells a piece of history, presenting an unique and beautiful view of various countries and their cultures in points of time. The fact that it changes languages and settings is one of the most rewarding qualities about this film, and also maintains a good pace for story telling and doesn't allow it to get too dull. Girard does an exceptionally wonderful job when treating these various cultures, not to go completely off the map. What he focuses on, ultimately, is the effect the violin and its enigmatic charm has on its owners: sometimes, as a gift, sometimes as a curse. Under some directors, the plot would have fallen apart with the various shifts in perspective and languages, but Girard manages to maintain a theme throughout the various countries and time periods that keeps the story together.

The cinematography is wonderful in this film, and everything is precise and detailed. But what definitely makes this film a complete gem is the use of music. The violin solos, played by famed violinist Joshua Bell, is haunting and magnetic, drawing the audience into a spectacularly imaginary, and yet real world. The score, which won an Academy Award for Best Original Score for composer John Corigliano, is delightfully otherworldly, reminescing of the old world of classic music. And yet, each piece of music also reflects the time, people and country the violin inhabits.

What the story ultimately foretells is the magic of music, it's charm and mystery, and how it has captured people across time and across worlds, enduring all trial for it ultimately speaks of something universal that lies within the soul.

O_O I need to stop playing Tetris. It's too addictive. But I'm not in the mood for homework or writing or anything. I kind of just want to chill today and do jack shit. There's nothing in the world I want to do right now...except maybe playing inappropriate amounts of tetris. Fuck you old retro games. They are not helping with my attempt at detressing. I really should be doing homework, but I have a good amount of time to do three four pages of literature review for my Sociology paper, so that should be okay...plus it's not due till Tuesday...I have two other simple assignments, too, so it's not so bad.

>_< I'm trying not to panic, freak out, etc. It's that time of year where I start going bonkers.

Maybe I'll go to bed early today...

I wish I had alchohol right now...damn...